Charlize's Apartment
Matt lied down on the sofa and stared at the poster across the wall. His tummy still bulging from the food that was served just now. Everyone have left the apartment but Andez and him. Andez is in Charlize room chatting and having more wine but he had too many so he rathered just lay back in the living room.
Somehow that poster of a girl looked so familiar, she is so beautiful just like ... and then he remembered. It looked like his first crush when he was 12 or was it 13 or 14. It was too long ago. Even he drank a lil too much today, he still can recall. And his mind wandered back to the time when his heart skipped the first beat.... on the empire seat... in a badminton court.... at the clubhouse.
That was when it happened. It was just another day of badminton with Andrew and William. He was counting the scores on the empire seat while both of them are playing. Across them there were two little girls playing badminton and the third one which is older on the empire seat. Matt couldn't help noticing that she turned around and smiled every 10 minutes. It was the most beautiful smile he had ever seen.
Matt: Hey..got leng lui looking at both of you playing
Andrew: Wah... ok ok...I play better.
Matt: haha...
For some reason, that moment felt special. He tried to smile back each time she turned. He tried to make it not so obvious that he was actually looking. But it was so unnatural, especially when he didn't want to miss the smile when she turn.
When the game got more intense, his mind was preoccupied with the girl on the empire seat in the opposite court. A few times he had to be reminded of the score. It was hard, and the last time he looked up she was gone.
When the game was over, Matt's mind was still not in its place. While both Andrew and William went for a shower, He decided to walked to the bowling alley towards the video arcade to play a game or two. After he walked down the stairs and turned left to the arcade, immediately she walked past him. For some reason, his legs couldn't move. His heart that was beating awkwardly the whole day stopped beating for a good few seconds. He waited a few seconds to grasp the air around him and turned around, she was gone again. But for some reason he stared at the empty alley beside the staircase, still unable to move. And suddenly, her head bopped out from the corner and smiled the same smile he could not forget til now. He almost fell down on the floor when that happened.
Since that day, he always looked forward to the weekend where he will be able to go to the clubhouse. Each time he meets her, each time he would feel that crush on his chest. Each time unable to move or continue doing the thing he was doing. It was his first time liking a girl, he didn't even know what it felt like til he met her. It was his first crush. The silly feeling that you'll only get when you're young.
Matt opened his eyes and smiled back at the girl who seemed to be smiling directly at him in the poster. He wandered where could the envelope which contains the letter and the comic strip he had drawn for her but never had the courage to give her.
It was a strip bout every moment that he had seen her, drawn up in his favourite anime when he was young. He also laughed to himself when he remembered keeping the mentos wrapper in which he had found in the bushes for more than 5 years til someone threw it away. It was the only thing he could find in the bushes where he saw her throwing something there.
It was so silly of him to have thought that she was writing her number or something there. Every moment was still fresh in his mind even after more than 10 years. He have always wondered 'How would she look like now and what would it feel like to be able to meet her again?'. It would have been nice to even just know her name. But then again how could that be possible when he wouldn't know how she looked like now. Unless her twin sisters were there with her,... or unless she remembered me ... so sily and impossible'. He smiled to himself and rest his mind finally.
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Betrayal
Matt always reminds himself never to trust anyone. Over the years, as much as he tried, he always believe in love. He's a man with few words and doesn't like to express much. He has a sister. Her name was Melissa.
Melissa and Matt was always close at heart. They've been separated since year 1999.
As much as she tries to protect her brother from harm, there's no way she could do that without hurting her brother. In the end, she had to keep it to herself. Didn't want to remind Matt of the pain he might feel.
"Beware of those you never trust. The pain you feel has been touched"
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